Grass in Green

You have come to my life like a flood, with so much emotions,
I don't know how to handle them,
Should I let it go and keep it in my heart,
If I try and keep them in my heart,
It gives me joy as well as pain,
Since I am more used to pain then joy,
I get scared as always to watch and wait,
But I know things are going to change from now on,
I get goosebumps, I pinch myself everyday,
Just to make myself feel that I am in reality and in a world
Where life has been so bad to me and yet so good at times.
No more words can say what I feel,
Just my breath, which refuses to stop,
Even if I try hard, my heart keeps on beating faster,
I feel like a new born baby again,
Who has got a whole new world to explore,
And a new bond to live every moment, and more so,
I am yet to explore the green grass,
Which breads a new life every moment
Hope the grass in my lawn is as green as my thoughts.