Grass in Green

You have come to my life like a flood, with so much emotions,
I don't know how to handle them,
Should I let it go and keep it in my heart,
If I try and keep them in my heart,
It gives me joy as well as pain,
Since I am more used to pain then joy,
I get scared as always to watch and wait,
But I know things are going to change from now on,
I get goosebumps, I pinch myself everyday,
Just to make myself feel that I am in reality and in a world
Where life has been so bad to me and yet so good at times.
No more words can say what I feel,
Just my breath, which refuses to stop,
Even if I try hard, my heart keeps on beating faster,
I feel like a new born baby again,
Who has got a whole new world to explore,
And a new bond to live every moment, and more so,
I am yet to explore the green grass,
Which breads a new life every moment
Hope the grass in my lawn is as green as my thoughts.

Inspiring somebody someday!

When I was a kid, I always used to imitate things which I would see from people I would interact with. Elders would say, "let the kid follow others as it will help him to learn fast" and I used to get upset, thinking, why should I follow others? Will it not be better, if someone else follows me? What I intend to say out here is that, even if we try consiously not to follow others, we still unknowingly keep on doing it, and that can be as simple as drinking water from a bottle rather than using a glass. So as kids, if we used to get inspired by someone and wanted to do the same things, it was not that we could not have done something else, but, it was much more than that. Maybe we were born in a way, where we can admire that one person and not others. There is no answer, why it happens like this, but it is the truth. Even when we grow old, there is always an inspiration which stays with us and I believe that helps us to take the next step in life. That inspiration can even be, a fish, which you would like to eat for dinner. Never, let that inspiration go away, as it is like a glowing light, which keeps on showing you the path you should follow. So always get inspired and be more effective to be an inspiration for somebody someday!

Atanu

Smiling face or a crying soul?

I always try and find some peace in war, happiness in sadness, laughter when someone cries, so does that make me unreasonable or not understanding enough to human standards. I react very alarmingly hearing songs which makes me cry, much more than those which makes me laugh. I don't know, pain gets more associated with me than mock laughter. Everyday, in office, I make sure that I laugh atleast for some time, but I can't cry out there, because when i laugh everybody will join me but there will be nobody who will cry with me. Can someone tell me why it is like this, i mean, both are just outburst of one's emotion. So why is it that somewhere everybody joins you and somewhere nobody wants to be a part of it. What happens when one's emotion gets better than the other, how do we react then? I feel we don't have any choice but to be the same, because, there has been no acceptance of cry in this universe. There is no competition at all, one smile can conquer lots of hearts but one cry can only sooth another aching heart. So who do you want to conquer, a smiling face or a crying soul?

Atanu

How much do we share!

Why does it happen that we most often can't share what we love, here love means any trait that makes you happy, and that can be as idiotic as looking up in the sky for hours. I believe there is not a single person in this earth whom a human being trusts to that level that he or she starts sharing everything, there is always that doubt which stops us from sharing this from that person and that from this person. So, ultimately, nobody gets to know anyone upside down and the mystery of what one can do at the spur of the moment always remains. If someone, starts feeling comfortable, there will be moments when the other person will make sure that this belief doesn't last for long. We all somewhere, deep within us, feel that how beautuful it would have been if we could have shared everything what we have in our heart and in our mind, but alas that seldom happens, or rather never happens. So, is not sharing a burden that we always like to carry or is it something which comes along with us even if we don't want it to be. Love is anyways said to be very intimate, so if you love the sky, maybe you share that with the sky and nobody else, and thus the process continues. But if the sky is happy, I have nothing to complain.

Atanu

Happy when sad

I have stopped getting depressed these days, because I just don't want to waste any time on that and rather do all the things that makes me happy. Do we really have a hand, in deciding if we want to get depressed or not, because I have had many debates on this topic, that we can't stop getting depressed as it is not in our hands. But what happens, when, the moment you realise, you are going in to that phase, and you want to reverse it. You start doing things that you love the most, maybe get the best movie and watch it, maybe cook the best food you like and have it, call the best friend you have, and scream at him or just try and pick a book and get inspired from it or burn it. Have you ever tried doing all these things, and you will exactly know how it feels, suddenly, u realise that the world is not so bad and you still have so many things to do which makes you happy. Happiness is a state of mind, as sadness, and all individuals have their own way of dealing with both these phases. So tomorrow, if you find someone, perpetually sad, don't be sad, because that person loves to be sad and his happiness lies in being sad.

Atanu

We, The Beasts!

In the darkness of night, there is a creature that rises from within us. It emerges only when it's dark enough inside you. When you are depressed, when you are too sad, when you are beaten; it also emerges when you achieve something, when you beat someone, when you win. This dark of us always remains with us, pulling us down towards what we are deep within -- beasts.

We try to become more human, but we fail in that very dark corner where we lose ourselves in the hand of that creature who awaits us in every moment of hope and despair -- to overtake and make us, even for a while, what we used to be -- beasts.

But, we ourselves are afraid of that beast. Because by making us what we truly are, it makes others look down on us. In the sanest moments of our lives, becoming what we are leads to shame and prejudice. No one wants to see the beast within, so they judge others if they get a glimpse of the beast in others. And then they feel gratified, they feel being better, they feel being sane and being more moral than the one whose beast they saw.

That makes difficult for us to be what we are, and forces us to wear some masks which could hide the beast living in the dark corners of our mind.

So, every time you try to be yourself, beware – they beast will break chains and set itself free.

Being free is being a beast!

Oh, Beast, Are you ready to be freed?

Swapnil Bhartiya Arnie

Sleeping peacefully

Can we really compensate for all the mistakes that we do, I believe we can, if the other party is willing to listen. Today, I was so angry because this city is so hot that I can’t even enjoy a holiday, leave alone trying to go out and invite the scorching Sun who is smiling at his prime. But unfortunately, I went out to see a movie with one of my friend, and he vouched that next time, I should make sure, I don’t get him a ticket for him, because of the “uncompromising” Sun God’s presence. I felt that he is right; I mean he travels an hour just to visit that theatre and it is just stone throwing distance from my house. But I also felt miserable, because all this is happening due to the heat, where we don’t have any say. Right now, it is 3 am and I am in my balcony and am blessed with some of the best wind I have ever had in my life. All my anger and hatred for that heat suddenly disappeared, but then I realized, that there are many people in this city, who are not experiencing what I am right now. So they will never forget this heat and maybe also never forgive it. There are so many things within us, which stops us from giving the other person another chance, I felt it very strongly today, and the breezing winds just proved me right. I am definitely going to have one of the most satisfying sleeps tonight.

Atanu

Wooing outruns love

The period of wooing someone can be the best moments of your life and also the worst because every second seems like years and everytime you are unsuccessful, it makes you more weak. Wooing is not like doing a job, it doesn't get better with experience but it ensures that you get discouraged for future. There is no doubt that you will now become more cautious, the trick is not the girl, but the moment where you wish to woo. When we all proposed being a teenager, we were so impatient that, our objective was to get the feelings known, irrespective of where it was said, and also from whose mouth it is coming out. Guys are normally very gullable, who behave like wax when girls smile at them and that wax is always ready for the fire which can catch any moment from any source. The feeling of love is far more romantic, then being in love or being rejected in love. We all live in sanity becuase we have this feeling, otherwise it would have been a Dog's Paradise.

Atanu

Are we rats?

Do you believe that we cry everyday, even if there are no tears in our eyes. There has always been a perception that those who cry are weak and sensitive and they cry because they are not meant to be a part of this rat race. But who really wants to be in the rat race, where every rat is not competing, but trying to be a better rat, at the end they are all rats. We all know what rats do, they hide when the owner comes, they steal when the owner is away, and gets killed one day by the owner or becomes so fat that it dies of over-eating. Do you really want to be like that? I chose not to be a rat, and rather cry everyday, because it gives me the pleasure of doing things a rat can't do. I don't want to hide if I am having a piece of bread, I don't want to hide if I am trying to be myself, I don't even want to hide any part of me which makes me comfortable. Can we ever live a life, where we really be humans?

Atanu

cities feed on us!

Cities like Delhi don't make us dry....
cities make us like themselves....
cities where we have come from have made us like themselve..
that is what cities do..
transform us into something we never wanted to be...
cities are like an oraganism...
alive and conscious..they have a plan..
they have an aim..
they comsume and they produce...
cities grow...and they feed on people like us...
we lose ouselves..
our value system..
and the very 'I' that make us what we are...
in cities like Delhi...
we just don't exist..
only the city exists...

SWAPNIL