Can we really bury past!

Can we really bury our past and move ahead, I feel we always carry them along as a baggage, which if left idle, would make our future more difficult. Have we forgotten those days, when just walking up to a girl and talking to her used to be devine experience and our friends hiding in the corner trying to listen to what I was talking to her. Are we willing to forget someone, who would have stabbed us on our back, and even though publicly we may announce that "I have nothing to do with him/her) but still that pain remains. We can't even forget, the paanwalla, from whom we would have taken our first cigeratte and smoked, leave out all the umpteen other things. There is always an unrest within me, that someday what will happen if I am not left with the past, which even if painful has been loyal to me. We all know, that whatever we are today, it is because of the past, so rather than only looking at a future which is not known, why not look at the past and enrich our knowledge for the upcoming unknown territory.

Atanu

Living without expectation

Why does it happen most of the times that you feel, the person next to you is not going to understand your point of view and you try and present things in a different way then the way you thought it initially. It has been eight long years, that I am in this city and apart from making you dry, this city makes you shrewd, it is upto you if you use it or not. It is not so hard to learn things out here, because everybody across you is out there not to show their skills but to make sure you can't show any. After a point of time, you start understanding that the old logic of "do good to others and good happens to you" seems a long distance myth. But, still, you cannot get away from this logic, it is just that, now you don't expect anything from others. One who can live without expectation, is always happy, but we all know how hard it can be.

Atanu

Truth of Innocence

Innocence, why do we lose it so early, is it because we are exposed to the dirt which blows around almost anywhere. Or is it because, we have this dirt encrypted within us, as we are human beings. How good it is not to know things and live in a world which is full of imagination, where we can create our own pictures and make all the necessary changes without any interruption. It is quite amazing, that we never get to know, when was it that we really lost our innocence, suddenly, one day we realise, it is not the same me. "I have changed", and we all know that this change is going to make us more vulnerable, prone to a life which keeps on sucking our blood at all the intervals. The problem is once lost, we never get that innocence back, it is even worse than a lost love affair, there is absolutely no replacement and also no escape from this ultimate truth.

Atanu

Freedom, do we practice it?

Listen to me, I want to tell you something, don't run or pretend, we all do that, don't we? But why? What makes us do that? Society? Does it feed us? No. Then why? To make others happy? But why would you want to make others happy? Are you happy with what you are doing? No. Most of us waste our life, thinking that what will others think if we do this or that, but at the end of the day does it really matter? No one is going to die with you or take your pain when your become an outsider? But we all are so afraid? Do we really know what freedom is? No boundaries, no barriers, no gates? We all have it, but alas we don't know how to use it. Charles Bukowski teaches us this basic fundamentals of freedom, if we can understand it, sanity prevails or else it is slavery of our own idiosyncrasies.

Atanu

Nothing Is Wrong!

Bukowski…why should I read him? What does he have to offer? What did he get in life? I don’t read Bukowski for learning anything, I don’t read him to become more intelligent. I read him to feel the dirt, the disgust, the filth that is very much part of all of us, but we refuse to accept. He did that gracefully. He told us what matters, without putting it in the basket of right or wrong.

You, don’t claim to be a good man/woman. What is good, but a parameter others set, or we set that suit others…you do a lot of things in those dark corners of your life, and they are so disgusting that you would not want to admit to yourself, let alone to the world. This man admitted that. He told us that we can be graceful and low at the same time. Then we can still look up when our heads are bowed!

Hail Bukowski!

Live with gods and be the gods…

Swapnil Bhartiya Arnie

Tongue talks

We all seek to get ourselves heard, be it somebody's ears or in somebody's bossom, but what happens when someone else hears what you want to say, the words remain the same, but the meaning doesn't make any sense. Or it makes too much sense, which then becomes nonsense. As long as we live, we will keep on hearing things that we want, that we don't and also those which we always yearn to hear, but at the end, we get to hear everything. So it is quite a fair end, isn't it.
How blessed are we that we can also make our fingers talk, in every sense, so let every part of your body do the talking and make your voice do the least. Use your tongue, whenever necessary otherwise just let it do what it loves the most.... and you know what I mean.

Atanu

Can We Use Love

We all are so used to the word love that sometimes it becomes difficult to distinguish it with love, I have lived in a way where i got used to rejection and what happens when suddenly someone accepts you, can you hold on to it, can you say that it really means a lot, or you are too attached to rejection, are you in love with rejection. How funny is the word love, which in itself becomes a irony when it is untold, and then it becomes a possession when it becomes known, try and love someone, because you need to know, what love is. There is no harm in knowing things, if you know you are going to use it properly....

Atanu

Insanity prevails

Can we try and change things at our own will, do we have the freedom to make ourselves felt. How do we react when vanity, which still remains an obsolete word, strikes you, do you believe in the failure of existence, do you ever feel that you will ever get the peace, what does this word peace means, do we get it ever. Insanity, sometimes, makes us achieve things that we don't do usually, try it once, and you will know what I mean.

Atanu

Charles Bukowski

If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs. And maybe your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery, isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance. Of how much you really want to do it. And you'll do it, despite rejection in the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods. And the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.